When you're sleeping with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part.

When you're sleeping with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part.

Tonight, I’ll cry myself to sleep.

I never thought that it would be this hard to conquer all the things that have been putting me down lately. All the worries, the sadness, and the like. I always used to have a back-up plan for everything but unfortunately, this time, I don’t.

I’m pretty sure of what I want to happen: end this, save myself from being lied on again. What scares, or what worries me are the things that would happen if we are not ‘together’ anymore. Yes, it’s scary. I used to be with him for like what.. 2 years and 3 months now. That’s a big risk, but I have to take this step to save myself from all the hurt he’s been putting me through. :( I now have to face a new day, waking up without his messages flashed on my phone.. waking up not expecting anything from him.. anymore. :( I guess the lyrics “When you’re sleeping with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part.” I should, I shall surpass these.

It hurts to be cheated on. It hurts to know the truth. It hurts to trust the person you love when in the end you’ll know, in one way or another, they have broken it. It hurts to feel like you’re the last person to know the truth. It hurts. It really hurts.

I have to save my better self for the one who is worthy of my trust. I have to stand-up for myself. I have to.