Telling the truth sometimes hurt but what more does a lie do?

I don't like the idea of posting some personal matters online but it's nice to hear people's reactions about it. Basically, it's also a way of updating the people close to your heart but far in distance. If you can't tell it straight, you post something relevant to it like a post about something sad, something painful, and the like. So for you, who changed your profile picture, hello. :)

You, making our picture as your profile picture, is a nice gesture. Our picture edited from how it was before. From colorful-now to black and white... from vivid to blurred.. from what was before to what is now. It pains me, it makes me sad..

Photography people say Black and White photos suggest the viewer to look deeper into the photo to look for the meaning.. what's in the surface without the color. Ika nga nila, "MAS MALALIM". In relation to us, I guess, we are now in the stage of looking deeper into ourselves, asking if this is what we really want and if this is what is bound to happen. We are black and white. Relevant to each other and resembles a different meaning when put together.

In Film, blurred objects suggest meanings. The blurred objects aren't that important to the frame. Objects are blurred to emphasize on the real subject of the frame. As for us, we are blurry. Literally in that sense. We do not know where our relationship is taking us. We let go of our identities and let the most important subject, our heart, work for us in the frame. Do we still love each other? It pains to think about this right now.

What happened really taught me a good lesson. Telling the truth sometimes hurt but what more does a lie do?

When you're sleeping with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part.

When you're sleeping with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part.

Tonight, I’ll cry myself to sleep.

I never thought that it would be this hard to conquer all the things that have been putting me down lately. All the worries, the sadness, and the like. I always used to have a back-up plan for everything but unfortunately, this time, I don’t.

I’m pretty sure of what I want to happen: end this, save myself from being lied on again. What scares, or what worries me are the things that would happen if we are not ‘together’ anymore. Yes, it’s scary. I used to be with him for like what.. 2 years and 3 months now. That’s a big risk, but I have to take this step to save myself from all the hurt he’s been putting me through. :( I now have to face a new day, waking up without his messages flashed on my phone.. waking up not expecting anything from him.. anymore. :( I guess the lyrics “When you’re sleeping with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part.” I should, I shall surpass these.

It hurts to be cheated on. It hurts to know the truth. It hurts to trust the person you love when in the end you’ll know, in one way or another, they have broken it. It hurts to feel like you’re the last person to know the truth. It hurts. It really hurts.

I have to save my better self for the one who is worthy of my trust. I have to stand-up for myself. I have to.