The Situation I'm In

Hello! I'm back and I missed blogging!

Saan kaya ako magsisimula?

Okay, LIFE has been good to me. Yun nga lang minsan sinusubukan talaga ako.. kung gaano ako kahina o kung gaano ako katibay sa mga problemang dumadating. Kahit ganoon man, at the end of the day, hindi ko nakakalimutan yung mga dapat kong ipagpasalamat.

Maraming bagay ang dapat nating ipagpasalamat. Unang-una, we are still alive. We can still see the beautiful and majestic things around us. We could still see our parents, relatives, and friends. Most of all, we could still feel the love despite ALL the PAIN. and the list goes on...

CHAPTER 1: WORK

EK Family day with GMA 7

I love shootings! Kahit hawak ako ng boom, game ako!

Taas lang ng ratings namin!

At work, I am truly blessed to have workmates na hindi lang 'katrabaho' ang turing sakin. Sa kanila ko natutunan na ang mga katrabaho ay pwede mo rin maging kaibigan. I could express my feelings.. I could tell them my worries.. mga ganong bagay. May father-figure, may parang Ate at Kuya kang matuturing. Parang isang grupo lang kayo na hindi man pare-parehas ang takbo ng isip pero at some point ramdam mo na nagkakaintindihan kayo.

MAHAL KO ANG TRABAHO KO. Dito, araw-araw may natututunan ako... iba't-ibang tao ang nakakasalamuha ko. People from different walks of life, people with different struggles and experiences.. na handang ibahagi ang kanilang life story.. sa likod at harap ng camera. Kahit kung minsan ay nakaka-stress, I still feel good lalo na pag nasa part na nagpapasalamat sila at natutuwa dahil sa napanood nila ang buhay nila on national TV. Nakakapawi ng pagod yun. Also, I get to travel around. Konti pa lang ang istoryang nagawa ko bilang ilang buwan palang naman ako pero I could say, napakadaming opportunities ang nagbukas ng pinto para sa akin. Nandiyan na yung iba't-ibang mga boss ang makakasalamuha mo.. iba't-ibang taong noon lamang ay nakikita mo sa TV. Iba eh. Iba yung pakiramdam na naiaapply mo ang natutunan mo sa napili mong propesyon.

CHAPTER 2: FRIENDS

Masasabi kong isa akong napaka-swerteng tao! Ang dami ko kasing kaibigan! Even though I ditch them sa ibang mga lakad namin before, hindi pa rin nila ako nakakalimutan. Ganon naman ata kapag tested by time and space na ang friendship. Kahit hindi kami magkita, isang text o tawag lang sakanila, rescued ka na kaagad. LAKING PASALAMAT KO DOON! Sila rin yung nakakaalam kung kailan ka dapat paiyakin at patawanin. Kabisado na nila kapag nagsisinugaling ka gamit ang mga salitang "Hindi dude, promise ok lang ako." Alam din nila kung anong kanta ang babagay sa sitwasyon o nararamdaman mo. Alam nila yung mga inside jokes na talaga namang ikatatawa mo. Minsan, pag talagang mali ka, sasabihan ka nilang "tanga" harap-harapan. Yan ang maganda kapag kabisado niyo na ang isa't-isa. No more backstabbing. Sampal ka kagad with words of wisdom.. na siya namang pinagpapasalamat ko din. They could make me relaize my strong and weak points without really hurting my feelings or screwing things up. Minsan nga kapag sa telepono kayo magkausap, kahit tuloy-tuloy kang nagsasalita ng puro reklamo, nakikinig lang sila.. and they'd say, "ano, tapos ka na? pwedeng kami naman?". Doon ka nabubuhayan ng loob eh, may opinion sila but they leave everything up to you. Yun ang swabe.

Sa ngayon di na uso yung shoulder to cry on. Minsan kahit magkausap lang kayo, harap-harapan at naiyak ka.. tama na yung you have someone to talk to. Sobrang okay at kuntento na ako don. AT SA MGA KAIBIGAN KONG NAKAKABASA NITO, ALAM NIYO KUNG SINO KAYO, maraming maraming salamat! Pakiss! :*

CHAPTER 3: PAG-IBIG

O siyempre, hindi ito mawawala. Sinubaybayan ng bawat isa ito eh. Paano ko ba sisimulan?

Okay, it's like this. People change, people grow. One way or another, you just really have to part ways. One phase every couple goes through: CHALLENGE. Lahat naman may challenge, may trials. Depende nalang how we would take it. May ibang "holding on" ang scenario, yung iba naman they consider "break-ups as an option". Well, one thing I keep in mind:

"TREES ARE PLANTED FAR FROM EACH OTHER SO THEY COULD GROW."

Kahit couple kayo at madami kayong common denominators, may differences pa din kayo. You think alike sometimes pero di talaga maiiwasan na yung isa ay iba ang opinion, iba ang pananaw, iba ang prinsipyo. Dito na pumapasok ang salitang COMPROMISE. If you both choose to compromise, mas okay diba. Yun nga lang, hindi sa lahat ng relasyon at sitwasyon ay nangyayari yun.

May mga bagay lang talaga na mabigat tanggapin kaya humahantong sa hiwalayan. Pwede rin namang masyado nang masakit para tanggapin o ipagpilitan pa. Kahit ano pa ang dahilan, basta naghiwalay kayo with the hope na mapapabuti ang isa't-isa, asahan mong mabuti ang landas na tinahak niyo. Though hindi maiiwasan ang mga panahon na itatanong mo sa sarili mo na "Bakit kayo nagkaganon? Anong nangyari? Kailan nagsimula? Hanggang kailan? Saan patungo ito?".. Masakit naman talaga. Hindi naman instantly ang pag-move on niyo. May mga panahon pa nga siguro na nasa isang lugar ka na maingay, maraming tao, pero siya lang ang naiisip mo. Huwag na huwag mong ikakaila na nangyayari ito sa iyo. Isang proseso na rin ito ng pagtanggap na "oo, maaaring hindi na maibabalik ang mga panahong iyon". Masakit, oo napakasakit. Pero wala, kailangan niyong tanggapin. Kahit gaano pa kayo katagal at kahit gaano pa karami ang naranasan niyo together. Palagay ko natural lang yun. Pinagdadaanan ng lahat ng nagbebreak yun. Huwag nalang magpatalo sa emosyon. BE STRONG.

Sana lang, huwag mawili ang isa't-isa sa sitwasyon. It could happen.. na isang araw nalang, masaya na yung isa na ganon nalang sitwasyon niyo.. at label mo nalang sakanya ay "my ex, now my friend". No matter how painful your situation is, ito nalang ang isa-isip natin, we have our own heartbreaks.. and we have the choice if we would let it put us down or make us stronger.

Mahirap man matulog sa gabi.. or patuloy ka paring umaasa na one day magiging okay din ang lahat, lasapin mo nalang. PAIN MAKES US FEEL ALIVE. At hindi naman dahil break na kayo eh ibig sabihin non ay hindi niyo na mahal ang isa't isa.. minsan mas nadadagdagan pa nga. You really have to spend time apart not because you love him/her less.. but you love them even more. Okay, babawiin ko pala yan.. ang dapat sa ganyang sitwasyon ay ang mga katagang: DO THE WALK, NOT THE TALK. Kung mahal mo pa nga eh ipakita mo, pero ipaliwanag mo din na may mga bagay pang dapat ayusin. Sometimes it helps din talaga eh. Makakatulong yung alam mo na may "hinihintay ka pa". Eh kung wala naman na talaga, "LET GO AND LET GOD."

hanggang dito nalang muna! lumilindol eh..

Salamat sa pagbabasa! Outlet ko talaga ito.. to express my emotions. :)

-Jonah

Hats off, 2010! Cheers to 2011!

Happy 2011, everyone!

A lot of my friends are posting "THANK YOU 2010, HELLO 2011" on their walls and I asked myself: What did I do with my '2010'?

Okay, 2010 has been very good to me.

1.I did not have a near-death experience, I actually had the craziest ride, happiest time!
2.I graduated from College, got my diploma on time.
3.I experienced bumming around while looking for a job (it sucked). But I learned to be productive by editing photos in Photoshop and Lightroom so, from nothingness to being productive!
4.I enrolled myself in Filmmaking and I could say it's a big turning-point of my life. I learned to appreciate films more.. and more.. and then some more.
5.Had the craziest vacation in our hometown. (Ilocos Norte) with relatives and friends!
6.I AM NOW A RESPONSIBLE CITIZEN BECAUSE I PRACTICED THE ACT OF VOTING! MALINIS NA PAGBOTO AT PAGPILI NG MGA KANDIDATO! :)
7.Got wasted at a party.. but it was awesome! :)
8.Had a rocky relationship. :(
9. Got my heart broken :( :( :'(
10.Appreciated my awesome and legendary friends MORE!
11.Appreciated the things I could do alone.
12.Spent time with parents just sharing stories on the couch.
13.Tricked my mom to let me do her make-up.
14.Did not lose a phone, a wallet, a key, etc. (THIS IS A BLESSING YOU KNOW!)
15.HINDI NA-HOLDAP!
16.FELL IN-LOVE AGAIN :) :) :)
17. Wrote my very-first screenplay (About to shoot it on 2011!)
18.Got employed!
19. Earned my very own cash
20. Brought expensive gifts for others.
21. Made my parents proud.


There were so many things and it would probably take me a month to finish everything. I consider them BLESSINGS! :) Even the times I was so down and hopeless. It changed me. It changed a piece of my life and that beats nothing!

Whatever mis-haps, whatever crazy strange thing, whatever happened, I will always be grateful that one way or another, I experienced those. It's important that we learn from them.

I hope and pray that 2011 will be a wonderful year for me, for my family and for my friends! :)

HATS OFF, 2010! CHEERS TO 2011! :)

Tears shed on a funeral.

Gone too soon.

Today, I attended a friend's funeral. We are really not that close but I always see her since we were kids. Her uncle is a close friend of my dad and mingling with their huge family wasn't hard. They are very dear to us and I could say we treat them as our family too.

She's dear to her cousins and relatives. She's known for being 'bungis-ngisera, walang kaarte-arte, at mapagkumbaba'. She throws funny jokes, and smiles a lot. To her mom, she's a precious gift and to her siblings she's a very loving sister.

I never thought I'd be affected this much but I say to myself that the sadness that transpired in the funeral served a good force for me to write this down.

Ate Meng, 24, a mother of two sweet angels and a good wife of Kuya Charles, died because of Dengue. The relatives told us she had Grade 4 Dengue. She stayed in the hospital and fought for her life in the ICU... but eventually surrendered and lifted everything to God.

Her mom, Tita Joy, suffered so much pain. In pain to see her daughter being CPR-d (i don't know how the experts call the past tense of CPR but yeah, she was) and finally having to decide to cut it out or continue. Ate Meng fought, she had her own battle but things were too fast.

I don't personally know her husband Charles but I saw them couple of times. Quiet couple but always sweet and thoughtful of each other. They had kids at a very young age, two sweet angels Charline (6y/o) and Catherine (turning 1 this Dec25). When I saw Charles the other night at the wake, he looked sad and exhausted. I often find him staring blankly at something. And I told myself, what if I am living the life and carrying the sadness he has right now?

Things start to flash in my head, countless sad, drifting things I could think of and a tear fell down from my eye. I said to myself, I am never strong with this kind of thing. Losing a loved one is hard. We thought break-ups are hard but this one is harder. When breaking up, you have this hope that you'll see him/her again, or someday you'll be back in each others' arms.. but with death, I can't explain it, but it's heartbreaking... and you have nothing.

When we attended the final mass, the priest kept on saying things that have something to do with Christmas. But what's moving is the part where Tita Joy spoke in front of everybody for her message and simple memories of Ate Meng.

Half a second, she's sobbing in front of everybody. She said, "...Sanay ako nagpapatawa, hindi sa ganito." It's true. She's a happy person and it's hard to see a mother who lost her daughter at a very young age. She had these messages from her children from the States. The messages made us cry. Charles did. Lots of times.

Charline did too eventually. I saw in her eyes that she's trying to understand everything, all the sobbing from the people in the room. Her aunts told her, "Wala na si Mommy mo, nasa heaven na.." and Charline just cried her heart out while hugging her Daddy Charles. It was really a heartbreaking thing to see.

The final blessing was another sad thing to see. Everybody was crying but what really caught my attention was Tita Joy. She kept on saying, "I love you anak, I love you so much. I love you Charmaine!" She said that many times with tears on her eyes.

I never thought I'd cry that much. I felt the love and sadness, the urge, the wish "IF ONLY WE COULD TURN BACK TIME.", the regret "IT HAPPENED TOO FAST." and the most moving words "WE WILL MISS HER."

It was hard for Tita Joy to accept that her daughter's gone now but I know Charles and her share the same pain. Charles loved her so much and he probably worries the future... I was told that Ate Meng usually waits for Charles at the doorstep of their house every night at sabay sila mag-didinner. She serves him and she's a very good wife to Charles. Paano na ngayon? When Charles gets home, who would wait for him at the doorstep? Who would hug him so tight? Comfort him? Who would help him with raising up the kids? These are probably the things Charles would surely miss about Ate Meng...

When the cremation was over, I found Charles staring blankly at the legit papers he has on his hands and he stared at Ate Meng's urn. I saw the sadness. I saw the pain.

I am sure the wounds would heal and they all would move on...

This experience thought me so many things. We could be gone in a blink of an eye and it would also be too late for us to thank all the people who loved us so much, that's why we must cherish everything before it's too late.

Ate Meng, you will be surely missed! Rest in peace.



PS.

..so when I die, I want everybody to wear white. I want a wide photo gallery near my coffin or chapel. I want an AVP and a mini movie where of course, ako ang bida. I want dim lights and the mini movie just keeps on playing. I don't think I want to be cremated but I'd surely love to get a regular visit from my loved ones. I want singing sessions at the wee hours para naman lively. I don't know but if you guys see this blog when I'm dead, please do these things for me.. kundi mumultohin ko kayo!

12 noon thoughts.

I'm waiting for the clock to tick at 12noon. LUNCH BREAK!

I am currently craving for food (as always). It's Thursday today and articles about FOOD have just spread the sheets of Philippine newspapers. And honestly speaking, they are also one of the factors of my cravings.

I would like to eat a slice of pizza.

Meat lovers pizza from Pizza Hut!

Are you familiar with the double delight promo you could get in Pizza Hut food stalls? I always look for that whenever I am on-the-go but starving. I usually eat it on the road, just to put something in my belly. I don't go for the Hawaiian pizza. I find it weird to have a pineapple on cheese, tomato sauce, and meat. Hahaha! MAHILIG AKO SA MAALAT, sorry!

I also want a Ziti to pair up with my pizza.

Ziti meatball from Aveneto

Pasta! Oh my! This one is so good for my tummy. Haha! I love eating pasta with lots of cheese and tomato sauce! Plus, of course, let's not forget the GARLIC BREADS! Random fact, I pair the garlic bread of Banapple with catsup! I find it yummy and it even tastes like pizza. Go try it some time! I am not kidding! Hehe!

I also want to have a Salisbury Steak

Red Ribbon's Salisbury Steak!

This one is really a must-eat! Its juicy burger patty is so yummy! The buttered corn and carrots also! And hmmmmm I won't forget the Mashed Potato with gravy! Haaay nakakagutom!!

For dessert, I think I would love a Banoffee Pie.

Banoffee Pie from Banapple!

This slice of cake is so yummy and it is worth the wait. Stuffed with bananas and cream, it could surely make your taste buds crave for more! It's cheap also! Big serving too!

And if I'll eat dinner, I would surely have a Chicken Breast Parmigiano.

Chicken Breast Parmigiano from Banapple

Yes, I am such a Banapple fan! Hahaha! But this one tastes so good that I always recommend it to people. Chicken fillets topped with tomato sauce and melted cheese! I tried cooking like these at home! So convenient and my mom loved it! It's so yummmmmmmmy!

I wish I'm an expert in cooking! I wish I could cook some like these in the future! I love to eat kasi hahaha so I should know how to cook! Plus, Axle loves food too! Don't ya worry, I will cook these! Hahaha!

It's 12noon! Time to hit the pantry!

Eat moderately,
Jonah.

Jonah: Sa Pelikulang Pinoy

So I was reading the newspaper today and I have met the column about the 7 Cinema One Originals that will be shown in Shangri-la Theaters on November 10-16. I am so excited for it!

And then I came across with this article (of which I cannot remember the title anymore) that states that the rate of Filipinos "na nanonood sa mga sinehan" increased by 23%. First thing that entered my mind is the possible influence and amusement brought by 3D.

I have watched movies in 3D. My first encounter with 3D cinema was when we watched Toy Story 3. The experience was outstanding! Sure I can enjoy the movie either way but watching it in 3D format's way better (and expensive? haha) but the experience was worth it!

Another encounter I had was when we watched Streetdance 3D. It's a dance movie that I enjoyed as well. Another one is Step-Up 3D. These movies really made me happy (and extra intergalactic happy because it's in 3D! haha!).

I suppose the thrill that 3D movies give its audience must have influenced and persuaded more people to watch films in movie houses and not on their couches. Meaning, people found a concrete and valid reason to watch in cinemas and not buy pirated dvds on the streets of Quiapo. Watching films in cinemas may be quite expensive. Movies in 3D formats are twice the price of regular screenings, but the popcorn tumbler, soft drinks, and the experience compensate everything!

Sure, pirated dvds are cheaper and more convenient to use. There are so many perks: You can avail 4-5 dvds in just 100 bucks. You can watch it on a daily basis, whenever and wherever you like. Another thing that may be listed as a 'pro' is that it saves your pockets.

I am no-advocate of original dvds nor of pirated dvds. In my own opinion, I think it's okay if you purchase pirated dvds as long as it is NOT A FILIPINO-MADE MOVIE. Our nationalism should come into play in situations like these. SUPORTAHAN ANG SINING AT ANG PELIKULANG PINOY!

I am a film-lover and a movie-goer. (Dating Movie-Goer, ngayon Filmmaker, Mowelfund 2009) It is only normal for us to search for some movies that serve as a textbook for our craft and it is also normal that we cannot find all these in the usual and common video rentals or video houses. We, in some way or another, purchase pirated DVDs. (Please do not be a hypocrite!) Another refuge we could turn to is the Torrents. Downloading must be the last resort because it is time-consuming and megabytes-related.. even gigabytes! Hahaha!

People who are reading this: Philippine Cinema died along with Fernando Poe Jr. and Rudy Fernandez who, legendarily, made tons of movies in a year. Filipinos always trusted their craft, their way of revealing different characters on screen and I bet it would not hurt that much if we create another legendary figures in Philippine Cinema. We have to REVIVE it. We NEED to.

Let us all support people who make movies especially PINOYS who take all kinds of pains and excrete gallons of sweat para lang mapaganda at MAIPAGMALAKI ang pagiging PINOY. If you have time, make an effort to support them. This coming November, let us make time to visit Shangri-la's cinemas and see the different emerging breeds of Cinema One Originals.

Kita kits!
-Jonah

The work and all that jam.

This should be called the WORKING GIRL's column. LOL!

So I'm blogging about my current work situation. I am the new Media Relations Officer, yo! Haha! My job description is to dispatch and monitor Press Releases of our clients. We do the 'charm' of Red Ribbon, Delifrance, Bistro Ravioli, Unilever, Shell Philippines- to name a few.

At first it was hard because I have to read different newspapers and magazines EVERYDAY to see if our press releases were already published! And I am glad to say that I am getting the hang of it. It's a nice experience because I am usually fascinated with reading through the internet and not the sheets, but now it's different because I do both! Haha!

Another fascinating thing I do here is the regular 'rubbing elbows' with different editors from different publications. Those who write for Lifestyle section, Entertainment, Business, and the like! It's like I do meet-ups and charm those big names we see on the paper everyday!

Well, some editors are busy so they just ask the guard to receive Press Releases for them. Some are extremely cheerful and warm when they know someone from a PR company visits them. We usually exchange smiles, comments, and simple kamustahan.

I admire their writing, especially those in the Lifestyle section. Their writing inspires me so much and knowing that I could visit them anytime gives me more confidence that someday, I could consult them when I write my own creative stuffs.

Having a work like this taught me how to be independent and ma-PR (malamang!). I am usually the reserved type of person and I don't talk that much unless we're in the I-know-you-and-you-know-me stage. It also taught me how to arrange my thoughts whenever I talk on the phone and interact with people in the business. It made me smile 90% more and talk endlessly about random stuffs!

Enjoying the work and having a good salary is a good equation. Of course, I cannot wait for the 15's and 30's of every month! having your own hard-earned money gives you the joy of being independent and responsible child of your beloved parents. NAAAX! hahaha!

Till here,
Jonah.

The times that tried our souls.

Did you ever have that movie that made you sit still? Well, I just did.

"When the action is over and we look back, we understand both more and less. The times that tried our souls." -Evelyn

These lines definitely got me the act to write my thoughts down. I never thought I would be moved this much.

It was one of the boring nights at home. And just because I am a movie freak, I saw this beautiful movie made by Michael Bay. The only war picture I loved (and adored) was HURT LOCKER by Kathryn Bigelow.. not until today. I have discovered one of the Hollywood's treasures and that is PEARL HARBOR (2001).

I know I'm a little late to see this movie but it really was one of the most amazing movies I have ever seen! I learned so much about it and I believe I was moved and I was inspired.

I learned so much about America's history and how December 7 of 1941 brought the Great America to tears, defeat and the need to surge forward to seek Victory. America's history is rich with valor and enthusiasm. I should not be surprised because for all we know, IT IS THE LAND OF THE FREE, THE HOME OF THE BRAVE.

In this movie, I have learned so much about brotherhood and valor. The two courageous young (and extremely charming) pilots had sacrifice so much of their lives to their beloved country and countrymen. Just like any other person, Rafe and Danny went through all the hardships an Army Air Corps' pilots would have but their bond went beyond the oath... they treated each other like brothers- from the beginning up to the end.

Another thing that's amazing in this movie is that it was able to incorporate romance into action and suspense. I have seen lots of TV series and movies that could mix them all up- Dear John, Prison Break.. to mention a few. But this movie has given me a different perspective, a different twist to experience. Who would ever wonder that two different men who treated each other like brothers could love the same girl? At the same time and the same place..

RAFE and EV.

Their love was extraordinary. Rafe found love in the middle of the hospital filled with aspiring heroes-to-be. It started out with a simple conversation and they both fell for each other. Ev is a very charming nurse (Kate Beckinsale literally has the looks!) and Rafe is a hot pilot (Ben Affleck's eyes could say much!).. together, they are like winners to genetic lottery or in other words, CHEMISTRY (hahaha!). But who would ever thought that Rafe would be one of those missing men in the middle of the battle and Ev was left alone, crying her heart out? See, that's what I am talking about. This movie has lots of surprises!

and that's where the story about DANNY and EV started...

Danny is the bestfriend of Rafe and it pained him also to know that he lost his bestfriend in the battle. Danny saved Ev's drowning and breaking heart. He made him believe that just because someone dear to her passed away, her heart should not be filled with sadness because good things shall come her way. And it did.. they both fell in love during the process of letting go with the past. It was cloud nine for them not until Rafe, still alive, showed up.

Rafe and Danny's friendship was put to test. If I were to be asked, this part of the movie was unexpected. I did not see it coming, not even a bit. And so, it made me love the plot even more!

I would love to share few lines I remember from the movie.

If I had one more night to live... I'd wanna spend it with you.- Evelyn

Having the thought of living your life all over again- from the beginning up to the end- with the same person? At some point, I did. It was when I fell in love and literally did not think of anyone else but him. I could not even imagine myself having a relationship with someone else.. even to the hottest crush I have on the list! I guess it is because you are satisfied and happy with that person that nothing else and no one else can compare with.

Ma'am, please, don't take my wings.-Rafe

It sounds unusual but these lines moved my heart. It was when Rafe was having that slim chance of being a pilot in the Army. When he uttered those words, it brought me to realization that WE SHOULDN'T LET SOMEONE, OR SOMETHING TAKE AWAY OUR ASPIRATIONS. We should not give up, nor give in. If he wanted to do more than the flying, then Rafe must have his 'wings' and I'm glad Ev did not take it away from him.

...all I ever wanted was for us to have a home and grow old together, but life never asked me what I wanted.-Evelyn

This is all true. When life gives you lemon, you're supposed to make a lemonade right? But what if you DEMAND tequila and salt instead? Life is unexpected and life can get freaky sometimes. All we gotta do is hold on and learn each step we go through.

Now I'm going to give Danny my whole heart... but I don't think I'll ever look at another sunset without thinking of you... I'll love you my whole life.-Evelyn

This line brought me to tears actually. I do not know why. I haven't experienced it but I saw the sincerity and the hurt between them. It was true love for them but because of some inevitable circumstances, they had to give up their faith that one day they will be reunited and fall in love again. It hurts so much for Rafe because the thought of Evelyn waiting for her kept him alive in the battle and it brought him home but it was too late for the both of them. Evelyn had let go of the past and believed that Rafe is dead and so she had to move on. If only time stood still and Rafe did not go to Britain... if only.

And so, to end this writing, I have to impart to you some words to ponder on...

When the action is over and we look back, we understand both more and less.